“Sad Multifandom | “I’m A FALIURE|


This video is really such a masterpiece !!!

Please watch this video n lemme know how do u feel after watching it !!!



He misses me, it’s been a long time
He does it when he pierces his notebooks stained with blots of black n blue
N that reminds him all the write ups I gifted to him, n den he tear the pages out of frustration.
He misses me , I can clearly say
He does it whenever he sees the shades of black n grey ,a reminder of musky moods Everytime I showed to him. It reminds him of my dark deep eyes n he misses my magical eyes more often.
He misses me when he stirs his coffee mug
While he starts reading any fantasy fairytales
While a girl takes out her dress and he reaches for her, his hands waving a lil denial n his heart suppressing the longing for my naked soul.n I know he misses me.
The longing grows inside day by day like a bonsai tree.
Something natural yet stunned
Something beautiful yet dangerous
Snipped n pruned carefully
Seeing it doesn’t grow outside it’s box. Not allowed to put down roots.
He’s probably in bed by then… Drifting off to sleep murmuring my name
And here I walk with my eyes to the ground,that’s scattered with autumn fragile leaves ..jus like our relationship.
I know he won’t reply me anytime soon. N even I won’t show my concern anytime soon. But as the longing for each other is deep down true, we would surely meet when the night turns blue.


P.S : approved by bharat upendra …. thanks a lot bhaiya 💫💫

Hope u would like it ..see ya !!!


What is goin on ? My thoughts,oh my thoughts !! I am not able to control myself. I dont even know what the hell i am thinkin . One moment i would laugh like a loon and the other moment ..i lay down and cry for long hours. My chest hurts ,hot tears spill from my eyes, n i dangerously lick dem to see if they also taste bitter jus like my LIFE. I honestly didn’t wanted to experience these heartbreaks, these frusrations at such a tender age ,where i should be smilin twinkling like a star. I dont want to be STRONG! I am tired of pretendin that i am strong . I lay in darkness until my tears dry .

And suddenly it happened.

I picked up the scissor and tried to make a deep cut. NO ! I dont want to kill myself., But that pinch against my skin for 5 mins calmed my soul and agony in my head and heart.

Should I be ashamed ?? No !! I feel good …!! It takes courage for a person to face everything with a smile even if ur world is upside down . Ok !! I know i am not proud of what I did, but at that moment that cut made me feel like yes !! I can do it !! I can acheieve my aims .. I am not a coward .. that cut is the reminder of how strong I am ..n how far I will go n how hard I will try to fulfil my dreams ! Cz yes! Nobody forced me to do it ! It was my descion ! So hell yeah !! That scar, that cut ,that tattoo pushes me into unknown boundaries n I can hear it scream to me :

“Dont reach for Stars darlin ..ur more than what u think n u deserve better !!! ”



Once as a child, I always had this fascination for fairytales . Havin read many of them with the same happy endings lead me to conclude that everyone in this world gets the same experience in their lives. These concepts , I held onto them while growin up. Always believing that there would be someone of some sort destined for me. Never did it occur to me at the time that it wasnt as easy as each story would make it appear to find this” happily ever after” that they always put at the end of every story. How would we even know it was the ever after? Is it where everything is really supposed to end? reality hits hard when we come across the unspoken things left behind the fairytale. The unexpected heartbreaks, the struggle of getting back up and finding ur way, the questions of lost trust , the fear of fallin again and starting from scratch , to find or to wait. The feelin of frustrating u get, the world in its continues spin and u fear of not being able to catch up n missing the opportunity of meeting whom ur supposed to meet. In reality u will jot be slaying dragons or fighting evil queens. In reality ur not guaranteed with fairy godmother’s help. But despite knowing all these , we still cling to the adorations of these stories. Why ? Because they fuel us to believe that despite everything there is always something good in store for us no matter what happens.!!





When u feel alone ,

I will be there to make myself a clown

Only to make u smile and laugh

Coz thats what made me fall !!

When u feel like a statue

I will be there to catch you

Coz u know i wont ever hurt you.

When u feel like crying

Come to me , coz i will lend my ear

To hear all ur queries and pleadings

I will be there for u till u pour your heart , till u spill all ur anger …n i promise i will be there for u till u feel better all again .

N yes , when u feel happy

Jus come to me , boy .. i will be there to cherish that moment with u, i will make u damn special n will even try to sing a dreadful song for u .. 😉 ( coz u love my voice)

N when u have a breakup with ur any friend , u still come for me ..n rest ur head on my shoulder .. softly curling my hairs on ur fingertips …coz u know i make u comfortable..!!

We have gone through all s e a s o n s my boy ! From autumn to spring , enjoyed the splitter splatter of raindrops…and saw the beautiful rainbow of our relationship.

We have hurdled close during winter nd played outside on summer.

We have gone through fightings and holding together back again .

I know its my mistake this time ..so forgive me my lovable friend

I am sorry for making u feel bad ..curse my mood

I wish things were normal again

Coz i miss u terribly …ur speech , ur smile ..ur breath

Ur voice , ur pleadings and ur smirk.

I know i am still the one who makes u happy and smile

I know we had much more fights than these …..

So forgive me again

Coz we are seasons … We meet every year in different forms !!


P.S : had a fight with lovable friend .. so poured my feelings in a go

N yeah ..sorry for not posting for awhile ..#thugkotalife 😅


I was walking, feet naked

Feeling the soil chunks upon my cold feet.

I gaze upon the sky

And it reminds me of your cerulean deep eyes.

Those eyes, which used to feed my fire within my soul.

The flowers embrace the breeze and shows me the prettiest smile

Just like u used to bring me a wide smile whenever u used to hug me.

The wind blows away my hairs

N i feel ur presence surrounding me

N then i miss the way u used to tuck my hairs behind my ears.

As drops of honey from heaven falls, i tuck my hairs behind my ears.. N continue to think about u.

Those drops fall gently upon my lips

N it remnicise ur sugary lips on mine

N then i miss how u used to make my lips swollen red.

And now these rain drops continue to fall,

Gently , softly with lulling pulsing beats

N then it reminds ur thudding but serene heartbeats ♥

When ever u used to come close to me.

Yeah, i must accept .. These raindrops reminds me of u

N i allow it to fall over me

Like the way i fell for you.

I continue to seep down … Letting these drops wash away my sins… Letting these drops hide away my tears .. Letting these drops to forget you.

For one thing is sure…

These falling rain drops

Surely will not hurt me

Like falling for u did …!!


P.S : this photo is taken by me when i went to diu last year ❤

Isnt it amazing ??